Urgh

Whats wrong with you? Dont want to talk? Whats the reason?
i think you are talking with that fucking guy.. Boy,#$ck off! You know we are dating why you still want to disturb us? Be a gentleman! If you were in my place You will feel what I'm feeling now.. I'm pissed off with you.. Bear in mind if i were to hate you I will hate you for life.. You disturb our relationship.. Boy walk off please.. Ever since you appear she changed alot! its all because of you! Think carefully.. If you were in my place I'm sure you will feel the same.. If I'm a cruel guy,I talk with you face to face.. I dont care at all.. But luckily I'm no longer that type of guy.. Be thankful.. And you have to..
You leave her once remember that..

Hiding..

Hiding of something? guess so.. I smell something fishy about you.. Your twit prove it.. A driver? hmm.. I think yeah,there is someone fetched you.. No wonder you said no to me.. I smell alot of fishy things that you are hiding it from me.. I never hide something from you honestly,i tell every single thing to you. Where else you? Dont know what to say.. I really disappointed with you. You totally changed.. A big changes.. I'm very upset with you.. Honestly,every seconds in my life now keep thinking about you.. I'm sad over the big changes in you. All your words now that came out from you is not you that I knew. You never think of my feelings isnt it. Upset,upset and upset.. I almost every night thinking of the big changes in you. I think I'm clapping with one hand. Why you changed? Why? You not happy with me? bored with me? Tell me.. Be frank.. Dont make me suffer.. I'm crying writing this post.. I stiil remember the words that came out from you.. The most hurtful words.. "I wont tell you if I'm meeting him or anything that have to do with him".
If I am cruel guy I will face that guy and talk to him.. But i cant.. I want to bring this matter out with you but I dint get a chance. Why? because we dint communicate much now.. Not like before.. Urgh! I'm very sad with you!!I love you but why you doing this?

Love..

I dont know what you feel on doing this.. Just dont understand.. Why you able to do this.. :'(
I thought its all over after what you said. But it became worse.. YOU MET HIM. thats the most pain you had given me.. Thank you,much appreciated. I try hard to take care of your feelings but you? hmm.. I dont have other girls for more than 3 years.. Why? because i want to take care of your feelings.. I always listen to you,but you? hmm.. You cantact with other guy and meet. Ever since that,you seems to ignore me. You forget that I'm still here loving you wholeheartedly even i know you do this. You forget that I'm waiting for your call,msg and more. I'm the only one that always eagerly want to meet you. And i think that I'm the only one that love you and you dont have the ffelings towards me anymore. Hard for you to call me this few days,msg me frequently. Not like before where you frequenlt do that. It seems that your love is fading.. I can feel it.. :'(

Been used?

Haizz... Everyday my mind wont stop thinking about us.. Are we ok? Do you still love me? Or just from your mouth. Just pretend to be one.. Haiz.. If I'm not a gentle guy or a type of a very jealousy guy you wont seeing me and contact with me again.. But I'm not that type of guy,yes I do jealous and dislike it but I cant do anything.. I have no right to stop you.. Who am i,just a friend.. The most hurtfull that came out from is 'I wont tell you if I'm meeting him or anything relate to him.. You are not my husband even my boyfriend'. Thank you very much..
Sometimes i feel like you using me when you in need.. You ask me to this and that. I never say no,all i say is yes or later k.. Where else you,Where are all your words that you said to me?I'm sure you forget all those.. But not me,i remember them.. the word is "I wont seeing or go out with anyone accept you." When was this? During that guy ask you out. And you told him too..
And ever since he came back in your life,you are totally changed. You are not the one i knew 3 years ago. You used to call me this and that,you used to msged me iritating sweet msg,you used to call me atleast 3 times a day,you used to said "i miss you" if we dint meet atleast 2 days,you used to share stories with me and more.. Where does all this go? I'm sad to have new you.. I dont like it.. I'm very dissapointed with you..
And maybe your love towards me is fading.. I clap with one hand.. I think I have to wait for the time where you will say things out.. Be prepared to me.. I will say things out but at the right time.. I let everything out that i have been keeping them all this while..

Distance..

I can feel the distance between us..
Hmm.. Yesterday you told me that you are free today after your school.. And you said you can go out,so i take this opportunity to spend time with you.. I lie to uncle that i have school and will come to work late because i want to go out with you.. I was very excited right after uncle said ok.
Only Him knows how excited i am.. I have planned everything whenever we going to meet.. Where we will be going,what are we going to do and more.. Sometimes it followed as plan.. As for today or this days I plan everything if let say we are going out. But all the plan canceled due to you. I have no idea whats actually going on between us. You never Reject whenever i said i want to fetch you or what before. But now,you can say that you want to go back with your friends.. Thank you very very much.. Much appreciated. Its only me that wanted to meet you,only me said i miss you,only me said i love you its all just me.. Not from you. Maybe there's no love from you.
me this "i love you Clap with one hand. I still remember last year incident during fasting month. You suddenly said that you feel the distance between us,but actually we did meet just that not frequently due to fasting month. But we DID meet. I even break fast at your house. And that you said you feel the distance between us. After you said that,our relationship start to apart for one day. But after the day you said that,we meet and went out with your sister. And after we went back home you msgsoo much,I cant live without you.. I'm sorry what i said yesterday and wont say that again. I love you soo much." I still remember this. If only i can show you the msg,i will show you the msg but it was at my old phone.
And you see now,we didnt meet for weeks and yet you didnt say that you feel the distance between us. Whats going on here?! tell me.. And you even mad at me because i meet you last 3 weeks and send you home. Because you promised to yourself that you dont want to meet me for that week. But thats ok,i'm fine maybe you want to try.
But what I really angry with you untill now is you can meet other guy on the following week. Thank you soo much. And you even scold me for saying bye immediately. Wasn't I'm the one that supposed to be angry? Wasnt you are the one who should say 'sorry'? besides I'm the one that apologizing you. Why? because i dont whant thing to get worse and dont want it to effect our relationship. Yes,i'm still mad because of that till now! Where are all your words before?
want to take care of someone feeling,dont want to go out with other guy and more.. where does all that go?Thanks for hurting me without your knowing. I'm the only one that try hard to take care of your feelings. Only my feeling that keep growing towards you. Yes i know i have no right to stop you from meeting someone or contacting with other guy,but think what I had sacrificed for you. I dint contact with any girl for more than 3 years just to take care of your feelings. Yes you dint ask for it,but I'm the one that wanted to do it because I think of your feelings. Haiz.. You are not the one that knew. You changed totally right after that someone came. You said that he once left you and yet you can still accept him? Where else me the one that always there for you,you can just.. :'( I'm not asking for a repay,but is that fair? You treasure more on someone that left you before.. I'm very disappointed with you.

Fate

I wish that we are the perfect two..

Wish to..

How i wish i could do this to you.. If only age is not the matter now,I'm sure i will do it.. hmm..
Are we going to be fate together? that question keep asking me..
But first thing is, is there anymore love from you to me in you? I just doubt that. You used to say names to me,you used to call me this and that. But now? nowhere to be found.. We even dint communicate much these days.. I realize that soo much.. You can msg with other peole but not me.. Its do hurt,when i ask the answer is "i'm busy these few days". Msg just take few seconds or maybe minutes,not hours.
We used to talk while you doing your assignment or study. But now you will said "call me after i'm done with stuff".
I dont know whether you really focus doint it or do them plus OTP with someone.. hmm.. You did that to me before thats why I keep thinking of that.. Everything changed right after that someone came. Totally you are not the one that i knew 3 years plus ago.. It really dissapointment.. It hurt me too.. Bit by bit..